Premonitions

David knew he was going to die. A few weeks before the awful day. He said "Mum, I don't want to grow up. It is too' hard. I'd rather stay a kid forever."  Another time he said, " I'm not going to make 20  and why do you get 50 years and I don't".
The week before David's death we had just celebrated my 50th birthday party. It was a wonderful night. I have photos of us all smiling big huge cheesy smiles. My smile was the biggest. I can't smile like that anymore. So much has been taken away. The world as I knew it changed forever on 7/7/07.
Two weeks before the day I got very frustrated and angry with David. I went outside to calm down. He hadn't done anything bad but was being a frustrating teenager.Suddenly I had this overpowering feeling of nothingness. Words can't describe it. It was like there was no future  for David. There was just a void.Two days before the dreaded event David woke up and told me of a dream he had.He said it was incredibly real and he had met my father who passed in 2000 and asked him what heaven was like. The answer he got was that it was wonderful. I forgot about this dream until a week after the event.How prophetic was it!
On the terrible night David was supposed to be going out with a friend but it fell through.This friend had been cancelling arrangements for the last few weeks as he had recently formed a realtionship with a girl.David like a noraml teenager wanted to have fun on a Saturday night and this meant being with friends and going somewhere. He didn't get to do it very often as 2 friends had moved away and others were working Saturday night. He said," I really want to go somewhere so my husband suggested the Tavern as it was only a fifteen minute walk away. (He regrets this forever)David was not the sort of person to go out by himself  and I really didn't expect him to go. It was really out of character when he said he would go. I wasn't happy. I had this deep feeling that he shouldn't go. I had a bit of an argument with my husband but he insisted I should let David go as he was nearly 20. One thing I have never done is blame my husband. It was if it was meant to happen.
As the night went on I became more concerned and rang David. He seemed happy and said he was having a great time.My feeling of unease continued and I made my husband walk to the tavern to join David. Then just after he left  my younger son, suddenly went freezing cold. He rang David's phone and it wouldn't answer. After many, tries a strange voice answered and said. Your son has collapsed but don't worry call back in ten minutes.
You're joking!!!! my younger son and I ran to the car and high tailed it to the Tavern.It was the beginning of the end and life as we knew it.